Thanks...

Semalam dpt call dari K Awa...

Kak Awa : "zar, ada penempatan kosong x?"
Me : "penempatan kosong??? penempatan kosong aper?"
Kak Awa : "alaaahh..tmpt tinggal..nih ha pengganti ko nak cari rumah sewa"

Alkesahnyer..tempat yg ku tinggalkan di unit lama telah ada pengganti..Alhamdulillah ..tapiiiii...secara rasminya aku sudah tidak dpt lg bersenang lenang di opis lama pasal tempat dah ade org duduk..hehe..that day budak come all the way from malacca with her parents..ada sorang lg laks..siap stay kat vistana hotel..duhss kesian..teringat zaman2 zar 1st report duty kat TM in December 2004...5 tahun dah berlalu...

Masa tuh masih musim raya..tarikh report duty 01/12/2004.. I came a few days earlier so that sempat nak carik rumah..destinasi tumpangan..rumah Kak semah and Bull..(terima kasih sgtla..)..tp mmg Allah tuh mmg maha kaya..zar dpt rumah there n then gaks masa tgh follow K Semah and Bull jalan2 raye ramai2..igt lg masa tuh kat rumah Yati n Pruzz..kak Semah juga yg bercerita2 Zar tgh cari rumah...and the rahmah falls onto me..

"Nko carik rumah Zar?" Niza kata..
"a'ah..tgkla esok" me replied..
"Rumah aku kosong.. Sarah baru jer pindah"..

Subhanallah...dalam aku gamble main redah je KL tuh..dlm dok terbayang2 saat2 aku berjalan2 area KL cari rumah dari satu tmpt ke satu tmt...mcm tuh jer Allah nak tolong.. :) so disitulah aku sampai skrg...

Dalam hidup ni..kene kuatkan smgt..dlm keadaan kita yg plg lemah.. kene selalu igt yg kita selalu ada Dia disamping kita..so jgn takut utk melangkah..kalau jatuh sekalipun..kita ada Dia sbg tmpt berpaut..Thanks Allah...for always being there....thanks kak semah and Bull a.k.a opismate...hehe...selaut penghargaan buat mu sekeluarga...

p/s: ..thanks to all too..you guys built the every pieces of me...

It's the climb..

Whenever u need a booster..this songs might help...tapi ntah setiap kali zar dengar lagu nihs..zar lebih kpd rasa sayu...yer ker rasa sayu..tapi ntah...it feel deep...deep inside..

The Climb

I can almost see it

That dream I am dreaming

But there's a voice inside my head saying

"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down

But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments that

I'm gonna remember most, yeah

Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing

Keep the faith, baby

It's all about, it's all about the climb

Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Aim-Higher!!

So this will be my passion for this 2 months..hehe ingat nak mereleks2kan diri kejap after finish my teaching..tetiba ada pulak org ajak main netball..hooyeh..suker2..bukan senang nak men'netball'kan diri after so long...practice kat cyber every Mon, Wed and Thu...duuuhhhsssss...soyak segala muscle2 a.k.a fats yang guwe kumpul sblm nihs...after 2 practices...my hip muscle can hold no more...mlm td heavenla sakit dier...nasib baik x 'keng kang' gie opis hari nihs...

So pasal practice kat cyber..che' kenela berulang alik dari KL ke cyber..mlm merempat di bilik Shahbe..kesian host..nak tido pon x senang..pagi2 lg zar dah kene bersiap2 nak ke opis..harinih mission berjaya..bertolak area 7.10 a.m and sempat sampai by 7.40 a.m..huyehhh..sempat nak dpt parkinggg!!!!!...

And this is the scenery I get on the way back to KL this morning..heavenly beautiful...

p/s: best dapat main balik..tapi kalau job teaching start next months cemana yer??? duhhssss..

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

An article i curik from afie's blog... baru jer ckp ngan mak baru2 nihs pasal nihs...marriage comes from jodoh or usaha? xtau nak percaya yg mana... kadang2 kalau kita dah berusaha mcmana pon..kalau xde jodoh x jd juger.. yer x? tapi kesian juge...if anything happens in one's relationship..selalu 'jodoh' juga yg dipersalahkan..it's not fair either.. then siapa yg patut dipersalahkan dlm hal nihs.. hahah.. hmm teringat this movie.."he's not into you"..the movie has been so objective in the 1st half...which really relates to the reality...but then ended with happily ever after.... i really2 don't like the ending...macamanala they could dare to lay every sense of reality in the beginning, just to end it with a fantasy again... sia2 jer...and the very lame excuse to that is.."exception"..

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said,
"How do I know if I married the right person?"
I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?"
In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer.
EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse / partner . You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit) .

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience.
You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love... Because it's happening TO YOU .

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Think about the imagery of that expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU...

Falling in love is easy...
It's a passive and spontaneous experience.
But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies , instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the right person?"
And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious.
But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it.
I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else.
You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later.
Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't "find" LASTING love.. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the expression "the labor of love." Because it takes time, effort, and energy.
And most importantly, it takes WISDOM . You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships.
Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger.
It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable. .. you can "make"love...

Love in marriage is indeed a "decision"... Not just a feeling.

Remember this always :

"God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go."