Selamat Tinggal INO..

Dah berapa kali dah TM re-org sejak 2004 and everytime I received the new offer letter stating the same post..the same people with the same gaji of course.. this time I receive a different one. It's the same letter with a different post, different units but unfortunately the same gaji..haha..so by 1st of April supposedly (baru hr nih dpt official letter), I had to transfer to this new department...perasaan??..sgt menakutkan .. feel not ready...missing my old colleagues...my old bosses (yeah rite)...and my old office which nearer to Jln Tar, SOGO, Mydin etc.. eheh..pendek kata sgt x best...opis baru nihs..penuh dgn org2 hebbat..rasa kecik sgt...

Tp dah masuk dah pon..redah jerla kan eks...Dr Mohd Sah said.."you'd make the decision..so just proceed..it shows you've the leadership quality..I totally believe you could excel !!" yeah..I am.. looking it in every possible positive way... I could do this...like I always did..i'm surely has to struggle at 1st but then manage to tackle it anyway...this is no different...NOT AT ALL!!!

Haha..punya nak kene ulang2 kat minda bende2 positive skrg nihs..the real is...i feel so kecik rite now...duhs2

p/s: gonna miss you INO...

Backdated Entry..

huwa2...punyala lama tidak mengupdatekan diri...jadual hidup agak kacau lately..selebihnya lagi satu sebab pasal kat rumah dah tade streamyx..so activity2 luaran seperti ini agak kurang menjadi agenda..update sesikit lah...stkt yg sempat amik gambar...

13/04/09 - Hari nih Cik Ivy bersepatu baru bak kata Wan.. :).. di pagi2 Isnin yg indah nih..boleh pulak tayar sebelah kiri depan flat... wooh..biler pulak dier jd cenggitu aku tataula pulak..mmg dah 2 hari cik Ivy x bergerak..kesian dier..diabaikan tuan...dukacita? xlah..mmg dah time dier kene tukar...and zar syukur sgt pasal dier flat kat rumah..kalau pecah kat tgh2 jalan raya lagila haru.. cumanyer..daripada tukar tyre..saya sudah terambil itu sportrim juger.. he he :D my mistake..couldn't resist the temptation.. huhu..tahun nih Cik Ivy betul2 henyak tuan dier..duh2..sudah tuer agaknya.. in Feb tukar Battery...last month tukar absorber.. nih tukar tyre laks.... duhaiii..cukup2la tuh che'...budget insurance awak pon belum carik lagiks..duh2s

10/04/09 - TM Award nite..Giela jugak tahun nihs..pasal satu INO kene gie kononnyer..tgk2 tak ramai pon yg turn up..tapi okla..dekat jer pon.. makan2..and dengar2 org nyanyi..ader satu show INUL..perempuan itu mmg sudah giler..itu jer yg zar dpt cnclude kan..dier gelek mcm lepas nih dier x keje kat TM jer.. xtau malu ker?

But performance by Mr Buddy Lawrence sgtla amusing..igt ntah saper2 jer depa jemput nihs..but this 55 years old guy really know how to perform..dengan pelat2 omputeh dier..dier boleh nyanyi..lagu pramlee n saloma..lagu ito yg po'e pokan tuh..lagu hindustan challey chaiya2..lagu ciner..lagu omputeh... byk gilerrla dlm x sampai 1 jam kot..

31/03/09 - last but not least is my bday..my god..i had my 29th this year..mcm x cayer jer.. mcm tahun2 lepas..zar harap mudah2an segala hajat tercapai tahun ni..diberikan limpahan rezeki dan rahmat kesejahteraan.. I know byk lagi yg Zar boleh capai dlm hidup yg singkat nihs..and I know I can do it..walaupun jalan kejayaan itu bukannya mudah..Do pray for me, frens..n always stay by my side like i'll do the same for u.. Zura, thanks for the Itallianese lunch..housemets, thanks for the Bday cake...and frens..thanks for all the Bday wishes...Appreaciate it a lot..Ehh..luppa..to both Mak n abah..thanks a zillions..it because of u both..I am here..where I am.. And lastly kpd tuhan yang Esa..seluruh tempat ku bergantung..kerana-Nya ku disini..dan kepada-Nya..ku akan kembali jua..

sesekali aku ingin rasa marah...

wahaha... kepunden marang skepper betul..baik2 aku sabar.. ader pulak yg tere mencucuk...dan tahniah kepada pencucuk berkenaan..anda telah berjaya!!!!.. pagi ini..saya agak kurang berjaya menjaga perasaan x puas hati... :) jangan la ader org lain yg mencucuk lagi..takkut meletup jer...huh..kang ntah aper2 aku buat kang.. bukan boleh cayer sgt aku nihs....

How many times in your life..or let say in a year...you've to dampen your own inner feeling just for the sake of others..hidup bermasyarakat nihs..kadang2 zar tgk nampak mcm buat kita hidup dalam kepura-puraan...yerla..kalau kita marah pon..kita kene senyum....kalau kita x puas hati pon..kita kene jugak puas hati...last year for example...i cud say is the hardest part of my life..tapi kene jugak tunjuk muka ok...gelak2...so that others won't suspect there is something wrong with us... my god...for the kind of person like i am, who is never like to holding back all inside me..that was pretty hard...PRETTY?? NO..it's damn hard...seriously...

but miraculously..Alhamdulillah..I manage to undergo last year pretty well...perghh..sangatla penyabar tahun lepas...for that I give myself 100 points... good girl, Zar!!!! tapi kdg2 rasa kesian kat diri sendiri...xperlaa.... sabarrrrrrrr...

tapi pg nihs..tetiba rasa nak meletup laks...aduuuhhhh....Astagfirullah..Allah..ampunkanlah hambamu ini..redakanlah api yg sdg marak dlm diri ini..simbahlah dgn perasaan redha...n semarakkanlah rasa kesyukuran...Ameen...ya Rabbal A'l amin..

Bila Izrail dtg memanggil jasad ter..

When my dearly pet sis Hernie Marlyanna suddenly msg me thru facebook..

"...hish.. menakutkan ler..mimpinyer.. kak zar ilang di hutan.. macam mana ilang pun tatau. lepas dah cari lebih seminggu.. terjumpa la rangka manusia yg dikenali sebagai kak zar.. siap dengan tudung ngan beg pastu muka cam nak reput2... uish.. menakutkan btol. dlm mimpi tu, punca kematian, takde air.. lama sangat ilang, pastu tak jumpa2 air kat dlm utan.."

waduh...ngeri siyuttt...isk2 dier nih pon..nak mimpi berpada2la.. haha...compom tanak masuk utan in this very near time...haha..

Hmmm...apa agaknya bende yg kita akan regret the most kalau kita tiba2 dipendekkan umur eks...hmmm actually I pretty much pernah diberi Allah sedikit pengalaman.. It was a dream I had a few years before..I can see myself died..x igt sebab apa..but can see clearly my mum was crying next to my body...perasaan dier masa tuh...Allah jer yg tahu...masa tuh Zar x pk lain..cuma pk..macamana agaknya kehidupan my parents selepas tu...dok pk2 ader berapa baki dlm my account...cukup x nak support my family and how long will it last.. hmmm... nak sebak rasa...

hmmm tahu pon sayang mak...hahah..the reality...saya masih lagi seorang anak yg kdg2 derhaka pada ibunda.. kih kih...aduhsss...Mudah2an diberi kesempatan utk memohon ampun..dan zar plg berharap, my parents will be well taken care off...even when I'm no longer around..

Kalau ngkorang?...

p/s: mak kata kalau mimpi seseorang tu meninggal, maksudnyer org tu nak dpt keuntungan dlm masa terdekat..Mudah2an.. Ameenn..

Tp..ader juga org kata...org tuh tgh dlm kesusahan masa tuh...Wallahu a'lam...dan minta dijauhkan..

..biler pg melabuh mendung..

Huh..been tagged?? haha sorry, Fie..baru la nih ada masa sket baca2 ya entry.. :) Thanks n appreciate it a lot to be part of your life circle...

Do you think that you are hot..??
haha..kadang2..memerasankan diri bile dilanda taufan down..

Upload a pic of you

Why do u you like this picture?
ntah..mcm best..gambar amik sendiri masa sorang2 kat Labuan...

When was the last time you eat pizza?
Few months before... ngan met kat Pizza Hut Wangsa Maju..makan wings pon sodap... :D

The last song you listen to?
pagi tadi..lagu Arab...Amr Diab..err don't ask me about the lyrics..but at the moment was crazy about this 'Love Story' by Taylor Swift..

What are you doing rite now beside doing this
YM ngan member..n cakap2 pasal kerje in TM..n suddely I realized that I have the opposite mindset of it in contras to the first few years I join TM..My god..I've turn into 'them'..

What name you prefer besides yours?
Zarina Maisara... I don't like the Siti.. wahahah...Maisara gives the soft touch when I was the other way round...mungkin kalau nama Maisara ader dari kecik..boleh jadi sopan santun sket kot.. hehe... other unique name that they called me.. Zarina Hasra (Abg Shidy bagi..).. Kathreen@ Katrina...when my colleagues combine my name with my Dad's...

People to be tagged
1. Wok Yoh
2. Taker
3. Kak Awa
4. Laily
5. Dier...n ramai lagi...

Who is no. 1 ?
best frens ever..we stays close when we are far far apart..Always the person to turn to whenever I had issues with my life... hmm..dah lama x ckp ngan dier..like Afie, she's getting busier with her PhD maybe...

Say something about no 2.
Big bro..another fellows who let his shoulder open for me (literally) in anytime in need..especially whenever I need the opposite sex view about something.. haha Taker selalu complaint Zar cari dier time susah jer.. he he

Who is no 3.
kakak..tmpt berbicara.. she's always full of advices and I adore her marital life...

What about no. 4.
Once was my 'bestest' friend... sad to remember that I 'lost' her once she get married...

Who is no 5?
someone to forget..

Update Diri -

Mmg lama dah x berkecimpung dlm bidang penulisan blog nihs..kononnyer busy banget sih.. hehe.. mmg busy sket pon..hmm..nak sgt mencabar kebolehan diri.. hameekkk...he he..kadang2 jem jugak tapi boleh survive lagi so far.. cuma masih terkejar2 baca notes utk mengajar.. wahahah..notes minggu depan pon x abies baca lg... sabo jerla..

so dlm busy yg main2 nih pon...mlm smlm sempat tgk Geng : Upin & Ipin... sukkerrrrr sgttttt!!! hehe...tersangatlah commel...n commella sangat...mmg asyik gelak jer n far from my expectations... awal2 letak low expectation jerla..pasal kartun melayu kan.. tapi sgtla boleh tahan citer dier...well done to les' copaque......especially to both Upin n Ipin...n the best quotaion for last night was : "Ipin2...fikir masa depan, Pin...." hahhaa... oh yer..kalau nak pie tgk..tgk sampai habies baru keluar panggung.. saat2 akhir after semua nama2 org tuh kuar pon ader lagi scene yg best.. hehe...

hmm..mlm nih laks ader kelas..kelas yg tertunda dek Ivy merajuk x leh start last week. Tinggal dier 2 days for Labuan last week...ader keje sket kat sana... hmm..then balik dari sana tuh..punyala beriyer buat solalan ujian budak2...tup2 biler nak start keter ptg tuh..boleh pulak dier tanak bangun... uk uhhh..menguji kesabaran betul...aper pun..Thanks to Shah, yg menjumper batteri keter ptg tuh...to jiran ( tatau nama dier) yg bersusah payah carikan jumper jauh2..tapi last2 aku panggil shah..to Amir and Sufi (my students) yg tlg gelak n kononnyer nak dtg tlg jumper keter ku...and lastly to my dear Suhada yg tolong hantar ke Produa Service the next day utk ambil Cik Ivy balik..Cik Ivy skrg sihat dan berhati baru...

Interesting pic..Kat Labuan, depa jual ketupat siap bagi pisau ngan papan pemotong sekali..hebat kan..mmg jarang nak jumpa kat sini.. tgn En. Mahadi hanya hiasan :)

p/s: the 1st blog writing from my new laptop, Mr Axe

Suntuks...

Aduh2.. template nihs ader masa laks dier nak hilang2... org tgh tader masa nak update nihs.. dier main2 laks..isk..xperla..settle with this one 1st la yer...before I had time to alter..

Busy jugakla lately..kelas dah start so I barely have time to study..nasib baik this few weeks ada cuti setiap minggu.. very helping for my studying process..kalau x..terkontang kanting my stud..hmm..kene spent time utk balik kg jugak..tapi huh..serupa nggak bisa sih..biler nak study kalau balik kg on weekends... huhuuu.... tolongggggggggg!!!!!!!