Jan 6, 2011

..hati lembut atau lembut hati...

Selalu sgtla dengar ayat nih "Ngko tuh lembut hati sgttt...tuh yg jd mcm tu tuh!!!"

..errk.. persoalannyer..salah ker jd lembut hati ? pasal kdg jd keras hati sgt pon x betul juga..

Kebaikan atau keburukan? Secara generalnya dulu zar igt satu bende yg baik..iyela..mudah di bawak berbincang, tak berkira dan x byk kerenah...so I assumed satu bende yg baikla kan..tapi lately lama2 mcm discover yg lembut hati nih kadang2 won't do any good to yourself jg..contoh..org yg lembut hati ni end up mudah terpedaya dgn kata2 jurujual ke..or mudah kene buli dgn kawan2 dier ke..mudah dikecewakan ke..itu pon category lembut hati jugakkan...hmm no good..macam xde pendirian !!!!

So sometimes it puzzled me..yg mana satu sepatutnya kene ikut...Dulu masa I was once a strong headed girl, garang and untouchable pon ramai yg x suka..terutama wanita2 yg tercalar dek ke directkan zarla..(kalau ada lelaki yg tercalar tuh lantakla kan..they supposed to be tough.. :p )..x suka simpan2 nih..kalau ada bende yg x kene..direct je cakap..zassssss...silap2 kalau x ready boleh kene heart attack gaks diorang...tp psl kwn2 rapat seme dah tau ngan perangai zar...boleh jer diorang adapt..hehe..tapi dgn perangai mcm tu pon I manage to succeed in my own way la..x tgk kiri kanan..redah selagi boleh...giler mentally n physically tough...and looking back..yess I was successful back then.. haha.. Banzaaaiii!!!

Tapi tuhla..it's either I am getting too old (ayarkss..) or it is because of the surrounding...the flame is no longer visible...no more garang (ye ker..hahah..), dah x fiercy ganas dah..dah byk mengalah..so with that smgt untouchable yg berkobar2 dulu pon dah makin hilang.. dah x pandai nak jd dominant..dah x pandai nak jd kuat...or my friends ckp...LEMAU.. (ZASSS..adeh..).. adakah?? sgt x sesuai tau utk Zar menjadi lemau seperti x sesuainya zar menjadi gemuk..cumanya x sesuai x semestinya mustahil...nak tanak kene accept jugak yg skrg nih kdg rasa mcm loser pon ada...d*** la..nih yg terasa nak jd gorilla balik nihs..

Lagila kerje skrg nihs..nama jer manage org..tapi rasa mcm pelayan pon ada.."comfirt lady" kata Pun (IT personnel F&N)...ckp telefon kene sopan santun...sweet2 je..dgn customer kene mulut manis...dgn csoc pon kene baik2...ngan RNO pon kene mulut manis...haihhh...mmg manis sungguhla skrg nihs...tih2..kang kalau garang2 diorang x tolong la pulaks..lagi susah!!! huhu...so semakin lemah dan lemaula dibuatnya...so bilenyer nak bg spirited mcm dulu nih...

sonyer..mcm nak kene cari bende baru...jln mana yg x put me into stagnant state.. tp jln mana laks yg nak kene ubah ni..tired of the same me.. tukar keje eks..kuar TM? ada beran?

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