Balik Zar..Balik !!

"Balik Zar.. Balik !!" kata En Ibrahim...

when I said K Long had called me to hantar abah to the hospital for his fisio this Thursday...

"Tapi saya ada meeting rabu tuh..kalau nak balik kene malam..balik sorang2..err..." antara alasan yg aku cuba nyatakan.

"Mcm tuhla anak yg duduk jauh...ada jer alasan..kecik sgt...dulu..masa awak kecik..nyamuk tuh pon ayah awak marah..kalau gigit anak dier..n bla..bla.."

huhu..bermulalah sessi kemarahan En Ibrahim..he like a father to me here..apa yg dia cakap, is luahan hati dier sebagai seorang ayah..hehe...n believe me..he still marah at me rite now pasal beralasan utk balik ke kg...walau pun sejak pagi lg zar dah ckp kat K Long...

"K Long.. Kak Ina balik pg Khamis tuh..kita pergi terus after K Ina sampai.."

Bertuah badan pasal ada yg sayang..ada kakak2 and pakcik2 yg care betul pasal Zar mcm Kak Sida and En Ibrahim..especially bila bab2 suruh balik kg, jaga mak ayah... he he...

yela2..org balikla...Insya-Allah..kalau bertolak by 5.00 a.m pagi tuhs..boleh sampai by 8.30 a.m.. sempat nak hantar abah ke hospital pg tuh... heheh.. betul aku neh..kang ada yg tidur kat katil hospital pg tuh..sambil2 tunggu abah habies fisio...

Ketika Cinta Bertasbih

saya sgt suka ini lagu..tatau kenapa..tapi sukala....

Ketika Cinta Bertasbih

Bertuturlah cinta
Mengucap satu nama
Seindah goresan sabdamu dalam kitabku
Cinta yang bertasbih
Mengutus Hati ini
Kusandarkan hidup dan matiku padamu

Bisikkan doaku
Dalam butiran tasbih
Kupanjatkan pintaku padamu Maha Cinta
Sudah di ubun-ubun cinta mengusik resah
Tak bisa kupaksa walau hatiku menjerit

Ketika Cinta bertasbih Nadiku berdenyut merdu
Kembang kempis dadaku merangkai butir cinta
Garis tangan tergambar tak bisa aku menentang
Sujud sukur padamu atas segala cinta

when u have it all but....

Hi blogspot.. haha.. lama gila x menulis dah...nak kata sibuk taderla sgt..tapi mmg dalam mood hari jumaat pluss terjangkit mood org selangor bercuti..

harinih makan2 dgn kak semah... borak2 and cerita ttg dunia.. hahah mcm hebbat jer.. tapi reality kehidupan nih mmg x semuanya manis...hidup nih byk2 dugaan and kita kadang2 x jumpa..kat mana takrifan bahagia tuh...

B.A.H.A.G.I.A.. entah ada apa dengan sepatah perkataan nihs.. nak ukur lagu mana pon tatau.. ada org kaya raya tapi x bahagia pon..ada org hidup serba sederhana..tapi asyik semput duit..pon x bahagia juga...then mcmana kita nak tentukan kebahagiaan untuk diri kita?..And paling sedih kdg2 kita rasa kita ada segalanya..tapi bahagia ker?

Na'uzubillah...

Remember when I forget my rumet's bday?? mungkin nampak kecil bg ngkorang..but to me it brought such a huge impact..there's no way I wud miss that day, but it happened...and smlm suddenly my mouth uttered the word 'Alzhiemer'...Na'uzubillah takutnya..takkanla dah ada gaya2 nak kene Alzhiemer kot??? wehhh belum 30 wehh....

so, hari nih baca2 pasal sakit tuh...menurut this article

http://www.alz.org/alzheimers_disease_10_signs_of_alzheimers.asp

10 warning signs of Alzheimer's:

	Memory changes that disrupt daily life
	One of the most common signs of Alzheimer's, especially in the early stages, is forgetting recently learned information. Others include forgetting important dates or events; asking for the same information over and over; relying on memory aides (e.g., reminder notes or electronic devices) or family members for things they used to handle on their own. What's typical? Sometimes forgetting names or appointments, but remembering them later.

	Challenges in planning or solving problems
	Some people may experience changes in their ability to develop and follow a plan or work with numbers. They may have trouble following a familiar recipe or keeping track of monthly bills. They may have difficulty concentrating and take much longer to do things than they did before. What's typical? Making occasional errors when balancing a checkbook.

	Difficulty completing familiar tasks at home, at work or at leisure
	People with Alzheimer's often find it hard to complete daily tasks. Sometimes, people may have trouble driving to a familiar location, managing a budget at work or remembering the rules of a favorite game. What's typical? Occasionally needing help to use the settings on a microwave or to record a television show.

	Confusion with time or place
	People with Alzheimer's can lose track of dates, seasons and the passage of time. They may have trouble understanding something if it is not happening immediately. Sometimes they may forget where they are or how they got there. What's typical? Getting confused about the day of the week but figuring it out later.

	Trouble understanding visual images and spatial relationships
	For some people, having vision problems is a sign of Alzheimer's. They may have difficulty reading, judging distance and determining color or contrast. In terms of perception, they may pass a mirror and think someone else is in the room. They may not realize they are the person in the mirror. What's typical? Vision changes related to cataracts.

	New problems with words in speaking or writing
	People with Alzheimer's may have trouble following or joining a conversation. They may stop in the middle of a conversation and have no idea how to continue or they may repeat themselves. They may struggle with vocabulary, have problems finding the right word or call things by the wrong name (e.g., calling a "watch" a "hand-clock"). What's typical? Sometimes having trouble finding the right word.

	Misplacing things and losing the ability to retrace steps
	A person with Alzheimer's disease may put things in unusual places. They may lose things and be unable to go back over their steps to find them again. Sometimes, they may accuse others of stealing. This may occur more frequently over time. What's typical? Misplacing things from time to time, such as a pair of glasses or the remote control.

	Decreased or poor judgment
	People with Alzheimer's may experience changes in judgment or decision-making. For example, they may use poor judgment when dealing with money, giving large amounts to telemarketers. They may pay less attention to grooming or keeping themselves clean. What's typical? Making a bad decision once in a while.

	Withdrawal from work or social activities
	A person with Alzheimer's may start to remove themselves from hobbies, social activities, work projects or sports. They may have trouble keeping up with a favorite sports team or remembering how to complete a favorite hobby. They may also avoid being social because of the changes they have experienced. What's typical? Sometimes feeling weary of work, family and social obligations.

	Changes in mood and personality
	The mood and personalities of people with Alzheimer's can change. They can become confused, suspicious, depressed, fearful or anxious. They may be easily upset at home, at work, with friends or in places where they are out of their comfort zone. What's typical? Developing very specific ways of doing things and becoming irritable when a routine is disrupted.

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The difference between Alzheimer's and typical age-related changes

Signs of Alzheimer's	Typical age-related changes
Poor judgment and decision making	Making a bad decision once in a while
Inability to manage a budget	Missing a monthly payment
Losing track of the date or the season	Forgetting which day it is and remembering later
Difficulty having a conversation	Sometimes forgetting which word to use
Misplacing things and being unable to retrace steps to find them	Losing things from time to time

Fuhhhh...nasib baik dier ada tulis comparison between Alzhiemer and typical age-related changes...kalau tak, confirm ada org pg jumpa dr pakar dah isnin nih..nak check kepala...wohh rupanya what I experienced is maybe a typical age-related changes...

Dan..kerana tahun nih hidupku mmg agak tidak x teratur dengan pelbagai activity tambahan..wokeyhs fair enough..kene try settlekan diri balik nampaknya.. :)

Prolonged Fever...

Huh..it has been my 4th day of feverness (err ada ker perkataan neh?)..2 hari amik MC, semalam stay kat umah..and today maila opis..tp masih lg with my coughing and nose block..baju dah berlapis2 dah nihs..tp masih x dpt nak menyelamatkan aku dari kesejukan opis...and skrg pulaks dlm mood lalok..after makan ubat pg td..zzZZZZZzzzz...rasa mcm nak balik umah jerr...have another round of day sleep...(cheh..pemalas!!)

p/s: kalau mcm nih terus..there goes of weekend plan..bukit tinggi??? wohh bisakah?..

Shahbe's convo...

Last Saturday yg indah...indah?? indah haper...panas aderla..wahahha..guwa seorang diri menunggu Shahbe di luar dewan..igt geng2 MMU ada gaks..rupanya2 mereka menghantar student netball team kat Dengkil..xperrr...demi Shahbe ku gagahkan juwa (jua vs jiwa)...

Pelih sudah mengalir laju dek kehangantan mentari..jam pulak bukan main laju bergerak...mana Shahbe nihs..kul 2 dah nak kene sampai kat Puchong..che' ada urusan penting untuk di lunaskan..dan akhirnya by 1.00 p.m pintu dewan terbuka...waduhh sket punya ramai budak keluar..yg mana satu Shahbe nihs..robe warna apa eks? topi lain ker? aper ker?..sabar yo lah...

Nasib baik jumpo..kot dak den tinggal yo Cik Kuning tuh kat tepi dewan...he he Congrat Shahbe!! ...jumpa mak n adek dier jer..yg lain ada kat umah kata dier..wohh anyway...I met Mdm Moleykutty George..haha one of my lecturers..she had finised her PhD....wahhhh n I think she looked prettier...woohh..not more that I am..he he

Itu Cik Kuning..

p/s: ptg tuh..I finally managed to sign my load agreement..n finish off the downpayment...

Life goes on..

Alhamdulillah...netball yg memerah keringat sejak 2 bulan lepas dah abies..we got 2nd place in KaSTel (Karnival Sukan Telekom)..kalah to Ibu Pejabat team..haha.. xperla..okla tuh..yg peting the outing was fun towards the end..don't let me elaborate on the beginning..it was disaster..

haha..mcm2 hal..but one thing I do learn through out the experience..nak main netball ni bukan stkt skill n stamina jer..banyak lagi bende lain nak kene pk..especially 'kesefahaman' in one team..yerla mcmana nak main sama2 kalau x boleh click dgn baik..sampai dalam hal memilih baju mana nak pakai pon boleh nak buat gaduh..hmm..mcm tuh punya penting kesefahaman nih rupanya...dan sgt penting bergaul dengan kawan2 yg sekepala..kalau nak get along dlm sukan pon dah susah..ntah mcmana nak get along dlm rumahtangga agaknya..kene byk berkorban dan bertolak ansur..hmm..wonder if I wud be ready for that..

So that't it..rasa x join KaSTel dah kot next year..gerun nak jumpa kerenah2 org..lainla kalau geng2 yg sekepala..lagipon.."I wud be pregnant by then !"..hahah

Missing all the team members..errr...those one to be missed only I mean... :p

P/S: Hehe...I was never proud of the medal..until I found out Taker didn't get through to the Final for voleyball..hahahha...rasa nak display medal tuh kat Opis jer.not on my table..but his...damn...I was cruel..tuh aa..mengata org lagiks..

Here it goes again..

teng..teng..teng..nampak gayanyer x sempat nak berehat...harituh igt after teaching in the 1st sem..this sem nak rehat....kononnyer nak settle2kan diri di tmpt kerje baru..tp termain netballla pulaks..igt habies by end of this month nak rest..tetiba kene mengajar baliks rupenyer...last week kat ruhid panggil...nyummm2...3 KELAS pulak tuh!!!! huwaaa...

By August will start with repeaters class..Kak Ruhid kata utk kelas nih x yah ngajar sgt..ajar sikit2 jer..mcm tutorial session..lgpon semua malay..fair enough...tp lagi dua kelas nihs..I have to stand for this lecturer on maternity...huhu..ada international student...n kak najihah kata..ada chinese student lepasan STPM yg banyak tanya...mampusssssss...terpaksala guwe mengeluarkan ayat lama masa tutor2 dulu.. "Ok..let me get back to you later" teng teng teng...nak explain in BM pon lintang pukang..boleh ker guwe explain in english nihhh..uwaaaa..tempah mauttt...

p/s: maut jgn di cari...

Apa yg penting..Kerjeeesamee...

Team lama before the selection, from the left : Kak Zack, Lola, Poji, Shahbe, Laila a.k.a partner in crime, Nancee and me.. Among us 5 manage to get through..leaving Poji and Nancee..and also a few others like Kireen, Koki and Kak Nora..sedih gak kalau ingatkan they all yg dah lama latih even before I started to join.. and sebenarnyer deep inside..zar rasa ralat when Poji couldn't get through... tgh pk2..if i'm not in the team in the 1st place...maybe Poji could be the GK and maybe she has better chances of staying...hmm..wonder if I really deserve to be in...hmmm..

What pass is pass...apa yg penting kene latih betul2..and improve my 'bola kaut'..ptg nih ader training ngan Kak Yati...Kak Yatiiiiiiiiiiiii.... train me pleasee... he he...

p/s: Toto hijau pulang ke gagang..

Selection..

Minggu depan selection netball will take place..huhu...ada team lain akan participate..so saingan agak sengit...dengan team lama TM Sel plaks tuh..awal2 lagi kak Zaliza and Mai dah pesan...diorang mmg dah lama main..skill mmg they all ada...bezanyaa...

bezanya kitorang muda2..wahaah...not so young i would say for my case..but a few others are newly bred..in netball maksudnyer...mmg lebih bertenaga...tapi skill kitorang sure kurengla berbanding akak2 player nihs..

aperpon for me..buat jerla yg termampu..kalau terpilih..bagus..kalau x pon..redha jerla...mungkin ada hikmahnyer...setakat nihs pon..zar happy dah pasal dpt main and training...

berat dah naik 3 kilo sajer2 jer...muscle dah sakit2 n koyak2...lutut dah goyang2... wahhahaha.. but it was fun.. and the best part is to meet all those new frens... :)

Thanks...

Semalam dpt call dari K Awa...

Kak Awa : "zar, ada penempatan kosong x?"
Me : "penempatan kosong??? penempatan kosong aper?"
Kak Awa : "alaaahh..tmpt tinggal..nih ha pengganti ko nak cari rumah sewa"

Alkesahnyer..tempat yg ku tinggalkan di unit lama telah ada pengganti..Alhamdulillah ..tapiiiii...secara rasminya aku sudah tidak dpt lg bersenang lenang di opis lama pasal tempat dah ade org duduk..hehe..that day budak come all the way from malacca with her parents..ada sorang lg laks..siap stay kat vistana hotel..duhss kesian..teringat zaman2 zar 1st report duty kat TM in December 2004...5 tahun dah berlalu...

Masa tuh masih musim raya..tarikh report duty 01/12/2004.. I came a few days earlier so that sempat nak carik rumah..destinasi tumpangan..rumah Kak semah and Bull..(terima kasih sgtla..)..tp mmg Allah tuh mmg maha kaya..zar dpt rumah there n then gaks masa tgh follow K Semah and Bull jalan2 raye ramai2..igt lg masa tuh kat rumah Yati n Pruzz..kak Semah juga yg bercerita2 Zar tgh cari rumah...and the rahmah falls onto me..

"Nko carik rumah Zar?" Niza kata..
"a'ah..tgkla esok" me replied..
"Rumah aku kosong.. Sarah baru jer pindah"..

Subhanallah...dalam aku gamble main redah je KL tuh..dlm dok terbayang2 saat2 aku berjalan2 area KL cari rumah dari satu tmpt ke satu tmt...mcm tuh jer Allah nak tolong.. :) so disitulah aku sampai skrg...

Dalam hidup ni..kene kuatkan smgt..dlm keadaan kita yg plg lemah.. kene selalu igt yg kita selalu ada Dia disamping kita..so jgn takut utk melangkah..kalau jatuh sekalipun..kita ada Dia sbg tmpt berpaut..Thanks Allah...for always being there....thanks kak semah and Bull a.k.a opismate...hehe...selaut penghargaan buat mu sekeluarga...

p/s: ..thanks to all too..you guys built the every pieces of me...

It's the climb..

Whenever u need a booster..this songs might help...tapi ntah setiap kali zar dengar lagu nihs..zar lebih kpd rasa sayu...yer ker rasa sayu..tapi ntah...it feel deep...deep inside..

The Climb

I can almost see it

That dream I am dreaming

But there's a voice inside my head saying

"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down

But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments that

I'm gonna remember most, yeah

Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing

Keep the faith, baby

It's all about, it's all about the climb

Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Aim-Higher!!

So this will be my passion for this 2 months..hehe ingat nak mereleks2kan diri kejap after finish my teaching..tetiba ada pulak org ajak main netball..hooyeh..suker2..bukan senang nak men'netball'kan diri after so long...practice kat cyber every Mon, Wed and Thu...duuuhhhsssss...soyak segala muscle2 a.k.a fats yang guwe kumpul sblm nihs...after 2 practices...my hip muscle can hold no more...mlm td heavenla sakit dier...nasib baik x 'keng kang' gie opis hari nihs...

So pasal practice kat cyber..che' kenela berulang alik dari KL ke cyber..mlm merempat di bilik Shahbe..kesian host..nak tido pon x senang..pagi2 lg zar dah kene bersiap2 nak ke opis..harinih mission berjaya..bertolak area 7.10 a.m and sempat sampai by 7.40 a.m..huyehhh..sempat nak dpt parkinggg!!!!!...

And this is the scenery I get on the way back to KL this morning..heavenly beautiful...

p/s: best dapat main balik..tapi kalau job teaching start next months cemana yer??? duhhssss..

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

An article i curik from afie's blog... baru jer ckp ngan mak baru2 nihs pasal nihs...marriage comes from jodoh or usaha? xtau nak percaya yg mana... kadang2 kalau kita dah berusaha mcmana pon..kalau xde jodoh x jd juger.. yer x? tapi kesian juge...if anything happens in one's relationship..selalu 'jodoh' juga yg dipersalahkan..it's not fair either.. then siapa yg patut dipersalahkan dlm hal nihs.. hahah.. hmm teringat this movie.."he's not into you"..the movie has been so objective in the 1st half...which really relates to the reality...but then ended with happily ever after.... i really2 don't like the ending...macamanala they could dare to lay every sense of reality in the beginning, just to end it with a fantasy again... sia2 jer...and the very lame excuse to that is.."exception"..

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said,
"How do I know if I married the right person?"
I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?"
In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer.
EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse / partner . You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit) .

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience.
You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love... Because it's happening TO YOU .

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Think about the imagery of that expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU...

Falling in love is easy...
It's a passive and spontaneous experience.
But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies , instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the right person?"
And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious.
But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it.
I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else.
You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later.
Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't "find" LASTING love.. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the expression "the labor of love." Because it takes time, effort, and energy.
And most importantly, it takes WISDOM . You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships.
Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger.
It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable. .. you can "make"love...

Love in marriage is indeed a "decision"... Not just a feeling.

Remember this always :

"God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go."

Wed Suzie's

Osman jd photographerla..

With Abg Kheruls n family..

hehe..aduhss..aku semakin meninggalkan dunia per'blog'an...ntah biler hidup nak settle baliks..hmmm rasa mcm hidup penuh sket tahun nih..at least for this 1st half...Alhamdulillah.. it's better that nothing rite..

So this is about Suzie'a wedding..on the 23rd of May.. Gie ngan Sue, Laila and Osman...haha agak mencabar pasal I leave the map to Osman and suddenly we lost track...mmg menjadi kepantangan zar to drive without true direction.. haha hamper bengang la jugaks..but thank goodnes we have Laila..nasib baik dier tahu direction..nak harapkan me..mmg fail...

Alhamdulillah..walau sesat sikit2..berjaya sampai ke Teluk Intan on time...kirer berjayalah..then sempat jugak singgah ke wedding anak Abg Rahim..igt nak jenguk menara condong..tapi pasal nak gie rumah Abg Rahim tuh mmg jauh masuk ke dalam....hmm x larat aihh nak drive...

Then balik ikut papanda Ramdzan...nasib baikla ada Hj..kalau x..ada jugak rasanya yg tidur kat ldg kelapa sawit mlm tuh...hehe nasib baik bawak seman...xderla rasa cuak sgt pasal at least ada guys among us...huhu...

Anyway..good journey.. Suzie..Selamat Pengantin Baru yeh...

Trip to jitra..

Compared to last year..this year x berjalan2 lg...job trip to Labuan tuh exclude la...pasal hat tuh keje..hehe...so bohsan2 hidup..follow Zura blk kg dier..Jitra..never been there..so it's an additional to my experience...

wohh..sat naa..pasal nak ceghita pasai Jitgha..kenela che' tukarq bahsa sana sat.. duh2..tergeliat teghuih lidah che'...maklumla..love to blend in with the culture kunun..so..bertolak hari Jumaat pg..sampai lebih kurang kul 6 ptg..duihhh..8 jam setengah ataih bas..boleh tahan sangap jugakla..n yg plg best..handphone lupa nak charge mlm sblm tuh...waahahha..kesian zura...

kat Jitra, sempatla zar jln2 gie Padang Besar..hahah..u should know what did i do there kan (motive utama).. tapi comparekan ngan Pengkalan Kubur..rasa kat PK meriah lagi rasa dgn barang2 dier..cuma selection of baju2 blouse tuh mmg boleh buat rambang mata..hehe...habiesla jugak budget makan sebulan..and yg lawaknyer..sampai jer kat Pdg besar..my accent was automatically changed to Kelantanese...yerla pasal depa semua mai dari siam kan...byk ckp kelantan..Zura boleh geleng kepala jer...hehe..nihla yg best boleh ckp byk bahasa..tapi yerala..confirm bunyik SIAM..

the next day sempat singgah gaks kan Pekan Rabu kat Alorq stark...beli ikan talang ngan DVD..isk2 RM 4 hengget jer kat sana...kat sinih mahu double the price..

Thanks to Zura and the family for the stay..esp to Zura yg bawak jenjalan w/pun kurang sihat..




Permandangan sawah di sepanjang jalan..Suker





Zura yg berbaju kurung di sana.. hehe..never thought of that..ni gambar masa makan mlm celebrate Bday Zura kat Restoran Bendang Di Kelubi.. the restaurant was surrounded by paddy field..but what the use.. malam..nak nampak appa...haha



P/S: Happy Belated Bday dear..May ya' life more prosperous than ever...owhh juga special Bday wish to my dear Afie yg jauh diperantauan...hehe selamat menyudahkan PhD dgn tabah..and i know you always is...

Selamat Tinggal INO..

Dah berapa kali dah TM re-org sejak 2004 and everytime I received the new offer letter stating the same post..the same people with the same gaji of course.. this time I receive a different one. It's the same letter with a different post, different units but unfortunately the same gaji..haha..so by 1st of April supposedly (baru hr nih dpt official letter), I had to transfer to this new department...perasaan??..sgt menakutkan .. feel not ready...missing my old colleagues...my old bosses (yeah rite)...and my old office which nearer to Jln Tar, SOGO, Mydin etc.. eheh..pendek kata sgt x best...opis baru nihs..penuh dgn org2 hebbat..rasa kecik sgt...

Tp dah masuk dah pon..redah jerla kan eks...Dr Mohd Sah said.."you'd make the decision..so just proceed..it shows you've the leadership quality..I totally believe you could excel !!" yeah..I am.. looking it in every possible positive way... I could do this...like I always did..i'm surely has to struggle at 1st but then manage to tackle it anyway...this is no different...NOT AT ALL!!!

Haha..punya nak kene ulang2 kat minda bende2 positive skrg nihs..the real is...i feel so kecik rite now...duhs2

p/s: gonna miss you INO...

Backdated Entry..

huwa2...punyala lama tidak mengupdatekan diri...jadual hidup agak kacau lately..selebihnya lagi satu sebab pasal kat rumah dah tade streamyx..so activity2 luaran seperti ini agak kurang menjadi agenda..update sesikit lah...stkt yg sempat amik gambar...

13/04/09 - Hari nih Cik Ivy bersepatu baru bak kata Wan.. :).. di pagi2 Isnin yg indah nih..boleh pulak tayar sebelah kiri depan flat... wooh..biler pulak dier jd cenggitu aku tataula pulak..mmg dah 2 hari cik Ivy x bergerak..kesian dier..diabaikan tuan...dukacita? xlah..mmg dah time dier kene tukar...and zar syukur sgt pasal dier flat kat rumah..kalau pecah kat tgh2 jalan raya lagila haru.. cumanyer..daripada tukar tyre..saya sudah terambil itu sportrim juger.. he he :D my mistake..couldn't resist the temptation.. huhu..tahun nih Cik Ivy betul2 henyak tuan dier..duh2..sudah tuer agaknya.. in Feb tukar Battery...last month tukar absorber.. nih tukar tyre laks.... duhaiii..cukup2la tuh che'...budget insurance awak pon belum carik lagiks..duh2s

10/04/09 - TM Award nite..Giela jugak tahun nihs..pasal satu INO kene gie kononnyer..tgk2 tak ramai pon yg turn up..tapi okla..dekat jer pon.. makan2..and dengar2 org nyanyi..ader satu show INUL..perempuan itu mmg sudah giler..itu jer yg zar dpt cnclude kan..dier gelek mcm lepas nih dier x keje kat TM jer.. xtau malu ker?

But performance by Mr Buddy Lawrence sgtla amusing..igt ntah saper2 jer depa jemput nihs..but this 55 years old guy really know how to perform..dengan pelat2 omputeh dier..dier boleh nyanyi..lagu pramlee n saloma..lagu ito yg po'e pokan tuh..lagu hindustan challey chaiya2..lagu ciner..lagu omputeh... byk gilerrla dlm x sampai 1 jam kot..

31/03/09 - last but not least is my bday..my god..i had my 29th this year..mcm x cayer jer.. mcm tahun2 lepas..zar harap mudah2an segala hajat tercapai tahun ni..diberikan limpahan rezeki dan rahmat kesejahteraan.. I know byk lagi yg Zar boleh capai dlm hidup yg singkat nihs..and I know I can do it..walaupun jalan kejayaan itu bukannya mudah..Do pray for me, frens..n always stay by my side like i'll do the same for u.. Zura, thanks for the Itallianese lunch..housemets, thanks for the Bday cake...and frens..thanks for all the Bday wishes...Appreaciate it a lot..Ehh..luppa..to both Mak n abah..thanks a zillions..it because of u both..I am here..where I am.. And lastly kpd tuhan yang Esa..seluruh tempat ku bergantung..kerana-Nya ku disini..dan kepada-Nya..ku akan kembali jua..

sesekali aku ingin rasa marah...

wahaha... kepunden marang skepper betul..baik2 aku sabar.. ader pulak yg tere mencucuk...dan tahniah kepada pencucuk berkenaan..anda telah berjaya!!!!.. pagi ini..saya agak kurang berjaya menjaga perasaan x puas hati... :) jangan la ader org lain yg mencucuk lagi..takkut meletup jer...huh..kang ntah aper2 aku buat kang.. bukan boleh cayer sgt aku nihs....

How many times in your life..or let say in a year...you've to dampen your own inner feeling just for the sake of others..hidup bermasyarakat nihs..kadang2 zar tgk nampak mcm buat kita hidup dalam kepura-puraan...yerla..kalau kita marah pon..kita kene senyum....kalau kita x puas hati pon..kita kene jugak puas hati...last year for example...i cud say is the hardest part of my life..tapi kene jugak tunjuk muka ok...gelak2...so that others won't suspect there is something wrong with us... my god...for the kind of person like i am, who is never like to holding back all inside me..that was pretty hard...PRETTY?? NO..it's damn hard...seriously...

but miraculously..Alhamdulillah..I manage to undergo last year pretty well...perghh..sangatla penyabar tahun lepas...for that I give myself 100 points... good girl, Zar!!!! tapi kdg2 rasa kesian kat diri sendiri...xperlaa.... sabarrrrrrrr...

tapi pg nihs..tetiba rasa nak meletup laks...aduuuhhhh....Astagfirullah..Allah..ampunkanlah hambamu ini..redakanlah api yg sdg marak dlm diri ini..simbahlah dgn perasaan redha...n semarakkanlah rasa kesyukuran...Ameen...ya Rabbal A'l amin..

Bila Izrail dtg memanggil jasad ter..

When my dearly pet sis Hernie Marlyanna suddenly msg me thru facebook..

"...hish.. menakutkan ler..mimpinyer.. kak zar ilang di hutan.. macam mana ilang pun tatau. lepas dah cari lebih seminggu.. terjumpa la rangka manusia yg dikenali sebagai kak zar.. siap dengan tudung ngan beg pastu muka cam nak reput2... uish.. menakutkan btol. dlm mimpi tu, punca kematian, takde air.. lama sangat ilang, pastu tak jumpa2 air kat dlm utan.."

waduh...ngeri siyuttt...isk2 dier nih pon..nak mimpi berpada2la.. haha...compom tanak masuk utan in this very near time...haha..

Hmmm...apa agaknya bende yg kita akan regret the most kalau kita tiba2 dipendekkan umur eks...hmmm actually I pretty much pernah diberi Allah sedikit pengalaman.. It was a dream I had a few years before..I can see myself died..x igt sebab apa..but can see clearly my mum was crying next to my body...perasaan dier masa tuh...Allah jer yg tahu...masa tuh Zar x pk lain..cuma pk..macamana agaknya kehidupan my parents selepas tu...dok pk2 ader berapa baki dlm my account...cukup x nak support my family and how long will it last.. hmmm... nak sebak rasa...

hmmm tahu pon sayang mak...hahah..the reality...saya masih lagi seorang anak yg kdg2 derhaka pada ibunda.. kih kih...aduhsss...Mudah2an diberi kesempatan utk memohon ampun..dan zar plg berharap, my parents will be well taken care off...even when I'm no longer around..

Kalau ngkorang?...

p/s: mak kata kalau mimpi seseorang tu meninggal, maksudnyer org tu nak dpt keuntungan dlm masa terdekat..Mudah2an.. Ameenn..

Tp..ader juga org kata...org tuh tgh dlm kesusahan masa tuh...Wallahu a'lam...dan minta dijauhkan..

..biler pg melabuh mendung..

Huh..been tagged?? haha sorry, Fie..baru la nih ada masa sket baca2 ya entry.. :) Thanks n appreciate it a lot to be part of your life circle...

Do you think that you are hot..??
haha..kadang2..memerasankan diri bile dilanda taufan down..

Upload a pic of you

Why do u you like this picture?
ntah..mcm best..gambar amik sendiri masa sorang2 kat Labuan...

When was the last time you eat pizza?
Few months before... ngan met kat Pizza Hut Wangsa Maju..makan wings pon sodap... :D

The last song you listen to?
pagi tadi..lagu Arab...Amr Diab..err don't ask me about the lyrics..but at the moment was crazy about this 'Love Story' by Taylor Swift..

What are you doing rite now beside doing this
YM ngan member..n cakap2 pasal kerje in TM..n suddely I realized that I have the opposite mindset of it in contras to the first few years I join TM..My god..I've turn into 'them'..

What name you prefer besides yours?
Zarina Maisara... I don't like the Siti.. wahahah...Maisara gives the soft touch when I was the other way round...mungkin kalau nama Maisara ader dari kecik..boleh jadi sopan santun sket kot.. hehe... other unique name that they called me.. Zarina Hasra (Abg Shidy bagi..).. Kathreen@ Katrina...when my colleagues combine my name with my Dad's...

People to be tagged
1. Wok Yoh
2. Taker
3. Kak Awa
4. Laily
5. Dier...n ramai lagi...

Who is no. 1 ?
best frens ever..we stays close when we are far far apart..Always the person to turn to whenever I had issues with my life... hmm..dah lama x ckp ngan dier..like Afie, she's getting busier with her PhD maybe...

Say something about no 2.
Big bro..another fellows who let his shoulder open for me (literally) in anytime in need..especially whenever I need the opposite sex view about something.. haha Taker selalu complaint Zar cari dier time susah jer.. he he

Who is no 3.
kakak..tmpt berbicara.. she's always full of advices and I adore her marital life...

What about no. 4.
Once was my 'bestest' friend... sad to remember that I 'lost' her once she get married...

Who is no 5?
someone to forget..

Update Diri -

Mmg lama dah x berkecimpung dlm bidang penulisan blog nihs..kononnyer busy banget sih.. hehe.. mmg busy sket pon..hmm..nak sgt mencabar kebolehan diri.. hameekkk...he he..kadang2 jem jugak tapi boleh survive lagi so far.. cuma masih terkejar2 baca notes utk mengajar.. wahahah..notes minggu depan pon x abies baca lg... sabo jerla..

so dlm busy yg main2 nih pon...mlm smlm sempat tgk Geng : Upin & Ipin... sukkerrrrr sgttttt!!! hehe...tersangatlah commel...n commella sangat...mmg asyik gelak jer n far from my expectations... awal2 letak low expectation jerla..pasal kartun melayu kan.. tapi sgtla boleh tahan citer dier...well done to les' copaque......especially to both Upin n Ipin...n the best quotaion for last night was : "Ipin2...fikir masa depan, Pin...." hahhaa... oh yer..kalau nak pie tgk..tgk sampai habies baru keluar panggung.. saat2 akhir after semua nama2 org tuh kuar pon ader lagi scene yg best.. hehe...

hmm..mlm nih laks ader kelas..kelas yg tertunda dek Ivy merajuk x leh start last week. Tinggal dier 2 days for Labuan last week...ader keje sket kat sana... hmm..then balik dari sana tuh..punyala beriyer buat solalan ujian budak2...tup2 biler nak start keter ptg tuh..boleh pulak dier tanak bangun... uk uhhh..menguji kesabaran betul...aper pun..Thanks to Shah, yg menjumper batteri keter ptg tuh...to jiran ( tatau nama dier) yg bersusah payah carikan jumper jauh2..tapi last2 aku panggil shah..to Amir and Sufi (my students) yg tlg gelak n kononnyer nak dtg tlg jumper keter ku...and lastly to my dear Suhada yg tolong hantar ke Produa Service the next day utk ambil Cik Ivy balik..Cik Ivy skrg sihat dan berhati baru...

Interesting pic..Kat Labuan, depa jual ketupat siap bagi pisau ngan papan pemotong sekali..hebat kan..mmg jarang nak jumpa kat sini.. tgn En. Mahadi hanya hiasan :)

p/s: the 1st blog writing from my new laptop, Mr Axe

Suntuks...

Aduh2.. template nihs ader masa laks dier nak hilang2... org tgh tader masa nak update nihs.. dier main2 laks..isk..xperla..settle with this one 1st la yer...before I had time to alter..

Busy jugakla lately..kelas dah start so I barely have time to study..nasib baik this few weeks ada cuti setiap minggu.. very helping for my studying process..kalau x..terkontang kanting my stud..hmm..kene spent time utk balik kg jugak..tapi huh..serupa nggak bisa sih..biler nak study kalau balik kg on weekends... huhuuu.... tolongggggggggg!!!!!!!

Kelas x jadi..

There goes my 1st class.. zar dah sampai dah pon kat MIAT..only then Aina told me that the students were not informed about the class...boleh x? duh2..agak sengal...

So nyer on the way balik Zar singgah Cyber..have a dine with Shahbe and Nami kat Q Thai restaurants in the Streetmall near MMU... tell you what..the dish were magnificious...sangat2la sedap plus at a very reasonable price.. HALAL juger...

Shahbe nyer nasi ngan ayam masak black pepper kot

Nami dish..chicken curry, fried su-un with rice...

And mine..wahahahha...dinner set..kueytiow tomyam yg sgt sedap..ayam marinate..fish cake yg rasa mcm otak2..kerabu mangga...tofu goeng...plus desert..giler x...it cost me RM 19.90 only... manage to finish it all except the kueytiow... he he he...tapi with help from nami n shahbe la... :)

Highly recommended!